So wow. All that trouble with Ashley and Amy, and I go to bed and dream about Laura. I haven't thought about her like that in a year. Anyway, Ryan Christen-Oliphant, Chad Flowers and I were infiltrating a shoe-store run by Christian fundamentalist's. We were supposed to meet our contact there. We said something bad about Bush, and they crazy hick women all drew knives. Luckily we ran into our contact, Laura. She kissed me pretty majorly, but I told her Brandon was around and he'd kill me. She seemed put off by this, but she ushered us into the secret door. On the other side was a 50's diner, and all our hair and clothing had changed to match. That's when I realized Brandon wasn't around and I probably could have kept kising her, but it was too late. So we were sitting at this counter, talking about the mission, along with several other people including Purple Trans. I don't know what else happened.

Chalk full of symbolism, this one, and not good stuff. We were having a party for Robert Frost's death. Then someone realized it was my birthday, so they turned it into a birthday party, and wrote Nathan on the cake. Then I was sad, cause my birthday cake was all black, so they thought holding a baby would cheer me up. But I held the baby upside down and it died.

The baby almost definately represents Amy. I tried to use her to make me feel better and now she's getting hurt. I just half to figure out what the rest means.